Hi baby boy,
I haven't wrote to you in a while, but that definitely does not mean that I have not been thinking of you every single day of my life. I miss you more than ever sweet baby of mine. I have been second guessing my decision that I made because I keep thinking what if they were wrong, what if you would have lived, but like your daddy said to me, we did make the right decision.
I want to tell you about the Memorial we are planning for you memory at the Church. I'm very excited about it. I know you will be there in spirit and shining your love on all of us who are there. You know mommy is a very sensitive person, so I hope that everyone can come, but I know that everybody won't and maybe people look at you as something not lost, we guess what world, my son, Liam, even though he never took a breath here on earth, is and was something lost!!! There how do you like me now?!?! LOL.
I will forever think about you and keep wishing that I could have kept you.
I always have so much on my mind..so much to say, yet when I sit down to write, I can't think.
I want people to know your story..our story so Im trying really hard to spread the word about Terminating for Medical Reasons (TFMR) and getting my blog out there. Why? I betchya people think I'm crazy, well guess what, Don't CARE. Ha. You are my first child and so be it if your in Heaven, this momma RIGHT HERE will not let anyone forget. I wish there was more I could do. I need to search for charities and then maybe ask people to donate to the charity, hmm wonder if anybody would?
I miss you Liam Daniel and hope that you are resting comfortably. Love you with all that I am.
